“ God, the perfect ever-new unending Bliss, is the greatest temptation to the soul of man. He tests His children first with inferior temptations of the senses; when the man has rejected those in a proper spirit of wisdom, the superior divine treasures are revealed to him. ”
Such is the paradox of creation, that God exists as the Soul of all men, creating and supporting them, yet does not Himself become entangled with them. And human beings, although saturated with God, are overcome by cosmic delusion and made subject to birth and death
Surrendering to the demands of the senses does not satisfy them, but rather creates insatiable desires for further sense experiences.
The more you become 'I do not know' the deeper your seeking is, Seeking doesn't mean seeking something. If you have to seek, you should not make any assumptions. You already made an assumption, 'God is sitting up in the heaven, I am seeking him' this is not seeking, this is just hallucination.
The pupil dilates in darkness and in the end finds light, just as the soul dilates in misfortune and in the end finds God.
In the end, it's not what you do for your children but what you've taught them to do for themselves.